some days

" After awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul; you learn that life does not mean leaning, and company does not always mean security; you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head high and your eyes ahead, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain, for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns, if you get too much. You learn to plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers; and you learn that (by God's sustaining grace,) you can really endure; that you really are strong; and that you really do have worth. "

- - Veronica Shoffstall

Don't get me wrong. Nothing terrible has happened to me. I'm not an emotional wreck (although that depends on who you ask!). I know my faith and my God gives me a Certain future. This is an OK quote, but some days words just strike a chord. By God's glorious and abundant grace you really can endure when you don't think you can - it's God. You remain strong when everything in you, your mind, body and flesh- is so weak, still God. And for some reason in the midst of the mind games and doubt you know you have a spot in this world that only you can take, that can only be the work of the Almighty.