No one puts pancreatic cancer in a corner....

I first read about the cancer yesterday, online in a news section of a website. OK, that's fine. Later that night I'm flipping through the channels and see the familiar red bar of Breaking News! on not one but THREE major news stations. Ooh, what happened now? If they are carrying the same story it must be big. A bombing? A food, toy, or anything made in China recall? An attempt on a the president? Is it snowing in Hawaii? Did Obama, Clinton and McCain decide to drop out due to incompetence? Is the Fed dropping interest rates? Was World Peace was finally achieved (thank, Miss America!)? I wasn't even close.

Since when on Gods green earth did Patrick Swayze become Breaking News??

Are the morons that run cable and network news so shallow and half-brained to some how justify Patrick Swayze, PATRICK SWAYZE, as breaking news? There's no such thing as an honest, real, intelligent and relevant story anymore - just mindless sensationalism.

Don't get me wrong, I like Patrick Swayze. I loved Johnny. He's got moves, man. I own the movie and I can quote from it. And if a movie has a fab soundtrack I will love it even more. I own the soundtrack (check out the Blow Monkeys) and it pops up quite frequently on my ipod. I think my Nano loves Dirty Dancing too :) But really folks, the only time PS (I had to reduce to his initials. Swayze is a hard word to type repeatedly - it's all with the not as limber left hand!) has been brought up in the last 5 years is when VH1 did I love the 80's and they mention him and his addictions alongside Jennifer Grey's BAD nose job. It's fine by me to mention in some news item that he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and maybe mention that someone "close to PS", stated that he only has 5 weeks to live, but do so only after you have all the facts!! No Dr. has given him only 5 weeks.

By the way, did you know that "someone close to PS" really means some nose picker in Cincinnati knows America is gullible and prone to panic attacks, called in into some important radio talk show, like Howard Stern, and made a sincere and authentic statement about the mans life expectancy. Interesting, huh? Back to the rant.....

I'm not belittling cancer or anyone who is fighting it , conquered it, or lost the battle. My mom lost the battle after a terrific fight with it. Cancer sucks, bites, offends and disgusts me. Patrick Swayze has a war to wage on his body right now. It's personal for him. I wish him the best.

What makes me so riled up about the whole thing is the fact that these "serious" news organizations would consider this red banner Breaking News. Sorry PS, but you're not the POTUS with cancer and 5 weeks to live, world peace, a nuclear bomb threat or a hurricane. I think you know that. I think you want to be left alone. Although (now here's the cynical part of me coming out. I blame lack of trust in the media!) you are coming out with some new show and I hope that you're not as sick and twisted as those news stations to use this to get publicity. How did this qualify? What are the standards news-makers? Did making your station a "24 hour news" station really screw you. I'm going to tell you that I'm truly fine with a "2 hour news station", just as long as what's presented was true, unbiased and actually something the whole world should know and care about. Again, sorry PS. And to top it all off, there is nary a mention of him today. How do you think that makes PS feel? Leave him alone. Your liberal use of the red banner Breaking News bar really got my undies in a bunch.

Wow.... I feel better.

PS - I love your hair PS!

some days

" After awhile you learn the difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul; you learn that life does not mean leaning, and company does not always mean security; you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head high and your eyes ahead, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain, for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns, if you get too much. You learn to plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers; and you learn that (by God's sustaining grace,) you can really endure; that you really are strong; and that you really do have worth. "

- - Veronica Shoffstall

Don't get me wrong. Nothing terrible has happened to me. I'm not an emotional wreck (although that depends on who you ask!). I know my faith and my God gives me a Certain future. This is an OK quote, but some days words just strike a chord. By God's glorious and abundant grace you really can endure when you don't think you can - it's God. You remain strong when everything in you, your mind, body and flesh- is so weak, still God. And for some reason in the midst of the mind games and doubt you know you have a spot in this world that only you can take, that can only be the work of the Almighty.

My first time

Either, you must not know me
OR
you know me and my "personality" won you over!

This is my first post and I'm quite certain no one will ever read this. For some reason I feel it's entirely OK to publicly post the contents of my brain. Everything. Kids, husband, job, "deep thoughts", my reasons why I have contracted anxiety, theology, plain ol' weirdness, likes/dislikes(read: totally legit opinions), random lymerics and so many other things (things I can't even define!) might show up here. Perhaps it's a theraputic want, maybe it's a sub-conscious need to be in the public eye (I'm a star - validate me!), a dream to be a good writer (just by having a blog I become witty and and an excellent wordsmith, right?), or just maybe I had too much time on my hands and creating my own blog was really easy (just like blogger claimed), that this blog has come to be.

Don't know I often I'll write.
Don't know what I'll say.
Don't know how to personalize my template - oh technology!
Maybe this blog will make me into the genius I secretly think I am :)

Thoughts right now: I'm run down with this cold that has moved into my chest, but I'm the mommy and the household captain *I'm not sick* The mass of red sprinkles on the floor and counter really bother me and now dinner is going to get started later. My body is doing things outside of my control. Why must my gut hurt so bad just because my husband is traveling - he's only in an airplane for pete's sake! I like Carly Simon and her call out of the vain man!

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